The journey of a passionate dreamer; me

” It may be far too distant to become the best but bit by bit every day I am growing, every day I realize that I have accomplished something more than the past, every day with a hungry heart I set out with a passionate attitude and the sheer love of obtaining success.”

The Day that turned my life upside down as though in a single stroke, words like arrows would shoot me all eternity. I was in the sixth grade which was getting over soon. The annual prize distributions were to be held and a nomination for an all-rounder was being discussed in our classroom with our class teacher. I never realized that an entire classroom of 35-40 people would chant my name altogether. This is a story not about a great accomplished person but it’s a harrowing journey of a passionate dreamer and the struggles in life that transpired.

The moment that I felt so glad and honoured was the same moment a while later I would regret of ever going school that day because my teacher in a mocking fashion questioned me and very insensitively remarked about how insufficient and unworthy  I was. All I have ever done in life even though as a youngster is that prayed to god every day cared for my ageing parents and followed every instructions and path that my teachers have shown me. I never imagined something that may seem petty would be a base for the way I would make my life decisions .” you are unworthy and insufficient for it” the words still haunt me sometimes but what was followed by was the uncertainty of own self and a coincidental meeting with a faith healer and astrologer stating that I had never and shall never stand first and that my life was useless and apparently had my parents given birth to another son, it would have been better which turned my grief into anger and anger into my strength.

I worked really hard and I did manage to excel in my academics, I also was the volleyball captain in my school, I practised and learnt vocals from my sister, I did sketching, and still till this date, I never miss the opportunities of learning new things, for instance, I have perfected myself in three musical instruments viz the flute, the mouth organ, the keyboard and now in years’ time the guitar too, sketching, pottery, dance, basketball(technical) too. The year of my tenth grade was the hardest as I got really sick, headaches mostly which led to insults and mockeries but all was over once I manage to pass with first division even though I knew I could do way better .when you set out to be the best and only the best in this materialistic world full of below-average people who are limited and dedicate their whole life putting up obstacles on the way.

I did acquire the first rank when I joined plus two it was the moment I truly want to remember every day of my life till the end of my days and beyond. The events that followed was a Déjà vu . Only this time a little pinch of politics, quota system and corrupt people. All throughout my plus two, I was tired, I felt lazy about even putting a smile, going out there. Soon the hopelessness turned into a great sadness and that sadness turned into anger and once again the very drive to be the best and only the best rushed through my veins. I made a vow to become a Chartered accountant and that too the best one.

It may be far too distant to become the best but bit by bit every day I am growing, every day I realize that I have accomplished something more than the past, every day with a hungry heart I set out with a passionate attitude and the sheer love of obtaining success. I have great hopes of the future and a promise too that no matter what happens I will strive ahead for the best and nothing will ever bring me down and that this time my accomplishments shall be permanent and would last forever, towards tomorrow!